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story of my life... [
August 24th, 2005 at 2:53pm]
[ mood | blah ]

Do you ever just hear a persons voice, the one person you care about more than anything in the world and as soon as you hear his voice you start to cry, because right there is the one thing, the one person who means everything to you and you're so happy that they're in your life but yet you're so upset because you don't really have them, because you're only friends and yet you want so much more out of the relationship but you know that you'll never get exactly what you want. You know that you once had the perfect relationship with this person and now all you are is best friends, and that breaks your heart everytime you think about it. Do you ever listen to that person ramble on about troubles with girls and just want to shake the hell outta them and tell them that the perfect girl for them is standing right in front of them! that you are the one who loves them more than anyone could ever love them. Do you ever feel like you know things would be so much better if they would just realize that the person they're really looking for is right there in front of them, that while they're going out with other girls the one who is standing here waiting for them and always will be is you. Do you ever just wish that you could get the fact that you love them and nobody else into their heads and when you try to tell them this they just think you're joking or you mean it just in a friendly way!? But you don't because really you mean it with all your heart, you mean every single word of it but they just don't seem to get it. And when you see that some girl is hurting them does it hurt you? Do you ever cry yourself to sleep at the thought of them getting hurt by some girl who will never love him like you do? cuz I do .. I cry at the sound of his voice because I'm happy and sad at the same time. I wish for so much more out of the relationship, I wish he'd understand that I'll always be here waiting for him because out of everybody he means more to me than anyone else. I wish that he knew when I say I love him I really mean it with every piece of my heart. I wish that things were back to how they used to be. And just knowing that some girl has hurt him makes me cry because I care about him so much and I don't want anyone to hurt him even though he has hurt me countless times, I can't stand to see him get hurt .. that right there is love. It's when you have millions of different emotions racing through your body all at one time. It's when you care about this person so much that all you want is to see them smile, to see them happy even if he's by someone elses side and some other girl is the reason he has that smile, as long as he's happy...you're happy. And you know that you'll always be apart of his life because you've always been there for him and you'll never forget about him because he is the only boy you really truly love, he's your best friend and you've been through so much with him no one could ever replace him .. ever, you love this boy and you know you do, he holds a place for you in his heart, and you hold a place for him in yours, you'll never forget this boy .. never

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August 12th, 2005 at 5:42pm]
[ mood | blah ]

I feel like ranting, and this seems like the best place to do it. I don't really care if noone reads this or comments cuz lj is dead so whatever.

This summer has been long and boring and I'm sick of it. I pretty much have done nothing but sit at the computer for 12 hours a day.

Done with boys again for awhile. Although they are wonderful to look at and fool around with, they end up breaking your heart and I'm not ready to put myself in that position.

Sick of this whole moving situation. I swear parents say something but never really make up there minds. Okay i get that we're moving, then let's find a damn place and get out of here. I'm sick of this house, I want something new. Usually I'll go and cut my hair or change my look, but I can't really cut my hair much shorter. haha

I'm missing alot of people that I used to talk to all the time at school. I miss seeing certain people and getting hugs from them. I miss just messing around at lunch or cheating on tests in class. I made a lot of great people this past year and I want to see all of them all the time again. I'm craving new close friendships and people I can trust.

I've been thinking that maybe staying in downey isn't such a good idea. I mean whats hear for me? ...nothing. Its a bad city with nothing to do. I made my parents swear we wouldn't move out of state until i got to college, but maybe getting away from everything here isn't such a bad idea. I'm sick of the same thing all of the time. gah I don't know...I would miss people and I'd probably have a hard time making new friends, but maybe a new life is what i need.

Alright I think I'm done ranting for now. and if you actually read all of that...wow.

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July 2nd, 2005 at 5:15pm]
[ mood | happy ]

I'm Back!

Wow, I'm actually updating this thing. what's it been like 4-5 months. ah well its finally summer, thank god...and this year actually ended well. Overall freshman year was good. Friends are great...especially manda and alex. hehe thanks guy for everything this year :)

My grades went down this year...but who really cares its just freshman year. parents were kind of upset about the D in math...but as long as i get my credits...I don't care.

New boyfriend...Billy. He's great. It's only been about 3 weeks though. My parents know about him...surprised I actually told them about this one. They like him. His parents like me too...so thats good i guess.

Not really sure what else to write in here...summers going good so far. I'm actually getting out of the house and doing stuff for once, which is a shocker. I miss everyone though...and theres so many people I want to see. Well not much else to write...I'll update later.

<3 Britt

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February 14th, 2005 at 4:06pm]
[ mood | happy ]

Happy Valentine's Day Everyone!

I hope everyone has and had a great day..i know i did! <33

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February 11th, 2005 at 3:50pm]
[ mood | pissed off ]

no one updates this piece of crap n e more, lj died, its all about myspace now.

lets see umm i didnt go to formal cuz of a little incident id rather not say, cuz who noes whos reading this.

finals were alright, i passed em all.

lifes pretty good at the moment.

leave a comment <3

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January 16th, 2005 at 10:56pm]
[ mood | happy ]

hey people! its sunday night and we dont have school tommorow! wohoo! lets see whats happened this week, school is the same ol shit, lots of drama and lots of homework, but it hasnt rained in a while and i hope it stays like that im so sick of the rain. there has been bees at school and its scary, i dont like them.

this weekend has been pretty good. friday i went to my moms work and check everything out, its a pretty cool place, came home and had a HUGE fight with the parents, but everything is ok now. saturday i rented movies and watched them all day and then went cosmic bowling later that night. i had alot of fun, i dont think words can really describe my feelings about last night, lets just say it was amazing and memorable. but with my luck something bad might happen and ill go back to being unhappy so im not getting my hopes up about n e thing yet. but who noes right. and today i went over to alex's house for a little birthday party kind of thing, it was fun, me and ashley were the only non-family kind of, so i felt special!! hehe it was lots of fun!!

going to winter formal for sure now, parents finally gave the ok for it, so i cant wait for that, me ashley and alex are gunna have fun!!! i love you girls! <3

not much else to say <3 britt

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January 8th, 2005 at 11:42am]
[ mood | happy ]

hey guys! well its saturday and its been a pretty good week for me! we went back to school, that sucked, but i got to see everyone which was cool. i missed everyone, lol.i bought x-mas presents for my bestest buddies, and ive only gave out two. lol. so guys dont think i didnt buy u n e thing, i did, i just dont want to take them to school cuz im to lazy lol. u guys will get them eventually. yeah um what else....i might be going to winter formal, im exicted! cuz ash finally got her bf brandon to say yes, so yay, now all we need is for my parents to say yes. last night i spent the night at ashley's! it was alot of fun. i was talking to brandon for a little while it was funny, he's a smartass, they are so cute toghether!! hehe. ok i dont have much else to say so yeah!

<33 britt

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December 29th, 2004 at 7:19pm]
[ mood | blah ]

some pics <3Collapse )

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December 19th, 2004 at 9:06pm]
[ mood | confused ]

well its christmas vacation finally, although its been pretty boring so far. i got to pick out my christmas present, its so pretty, i cant wait until i get it. theres alot going on in my head and i hate it cuz im so confused. a couple ppl noe what im talking about but not many. this is one thing i need to deal with by myself, so sorry to anyone if im hurting them by my decision. either way i would be hurting sumone, and i dont want to hurt either one of them. i think one of them knows where im coming from and wont end up hating me, i hope so cuz i dont want them to hate me. the other one has no idea about it so i cant say much about that. lucky i have a few great friends that are there for me that i can talk to. thanx u guys. ill update in a few days or when sumthing eventful happens.

<33 britt

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December 14th, 2004 at 5:02pm]
[ mood | confused ]

gah this day has been filled with drama its driving me crazy, first i get in a fight with my best friend and almost loose her for goo, but i think we're good enough of friends that we can get through this, i hope. so that completely ruined my day. and then another part of ABRAA is breaking up which sux cuz i noe they can make it thru it too. and then i get home and find out another thing we just messes me up even more, my mind is like going a million miles and im all shaky. school is driving me insane, so much homework to handle im suprised im doing as good as i am.

well im off to steph's to bake a cake, maybe that will be fun!

call the cell n e time you want to, now that i have one again ! hehe

<33 britt

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December 12th, 2004 at 1:02pm]
[ mood | bored ]

well i finally got internet up and working again, yay! i went a week without it, dont noe how i survived. well its sunday which means i shud be doing my hw, i'll get to it in a little while, im too lazy, haha.

friday i went cosmic bowling with alex, her cousin amanda and her friend, it was fun, i fell on my ass a lot but thats ok, haha at least i didnt drop the ball like everyone else! hehe


not much else to say, ill update with pictures of me when i was little as soon as i can.

<33 britt

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December 1st, 2004 at 4:34pm]
[ mood | excited ]

this is adorable <3Collapse )

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November 25th, 2004 at 7:01pm]
[ mood | full ]

its thanksgiving night, just got done eating, im stuffed, lol. this weekend is a 4 day weekend yay! although i have alot of hw tahts ok, i think everyone needs a break from school.i noe i do. my bros home for the weekend, good to see him.

not sure what else there is to say

hope everyone has a good thanksgiving :)

<33 britt

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November 19th, 2004 at 4:26pm]
[ mood | sick ]

its friday thank god, unfortantly i have a TON of work this weekend but i do need a break and isnt next week a 3 day week again? yeah i think it is. this week was pretty crappy but nuthing majorly bad happened to me.

we got report cards today

honors english: B
Bio: C
Honors Geometry: C+
French: A
Computers: A

eh not that bad 3.5 gpa im satisfied, i could have done better but im passing so thats what matters at quarter.

saturday school tommorow!! haha fun fun fun


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November 11th, 2004 at 11:03pm]
[ mood | hyper ]

Homecoming Pics.......finally :)Collapse )

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November 9th, 2004 at 5:52pm]
well its almost the end of the school week, we get thursday and friday off, thank god. i got saturday school because of dress code, so if anyone else got it, let me know so im not alone! lol well yeah not much else to say!!!

comment! <3

November 5th, 2004 at 9:07pm]
[ mood | bored ]

Your name? : Brittney
Birthplace : Whitter, Ca
Age : 14 finally!
Age you act : not sure you tell me!
Current location : Downey
Eye color : green, but they are ugly and too small
Hair color : all blonde, well nto all there is some red still
Right, lefty or ambidextrous? : Lefty
Zodiac sign? : Virgo
Height? : 5'3' yay! lol that is still pretty short

Your heritage/nationality : um....english, german, italian, polish, irish, skotch, indian.....the list could go on and on
Your hair : u it is blonde, short i guess, and lots of layers
Your fears : spiders, they scare me to death
Your perfect room : pink, pink and more pink 
What you practically do in a day : ummmmm not much, go to school, hang out, eat, go online and watch tv

Words you overuse : shit, crap, omg, freak, dumbass, loser
Phrases you overuse : what the fuck, what the...., i hate you
Your first thought when you wake up : will my alarm just shut up and let me sleep
Your greatest accomplishment : ummmmm surviving being best friends with manda!! haha im jk!!!!

Pepsi or Coke : pepsi, but either one is fine
McDonald's or Burger Kings : neither....gross
Britney Spears or Christina Aguilera : britney.....she has my name
Chocolate or vanilla : chocolate omg i could not live without it
Adidas or Nike : neither all about converse
Black or white : black....more mysterious
Bills or Coins ((Think $$$)) :  bills
Burgers or hot dogs : burgers
Egypt or France : france...i want to go so bad anyone want to take me?
Rock or rap : rock, most rap is annoying

Smoke : no
Cuss : duhh all time, ecept around the parents
Sing well : highly doubtful
Sing in the shower : not lately
Talk to yourself --a lot-- : yeah i do actually
Like taking these longass surveys? : yes they keep me unbored
Play an instrument : well i can play keyboard but i dont play much anymore
Want to go to college? :  yup me and manda are gunna go to NYU!!
Want to get married? :  yes
Want to have children? : yes
Think you're a health freak? :  hell no
Get along with your parents : my mom more than my dad
Get along with your siblings? : yes now that he doesnt live with me

Gone out of state :  no
Drank alchohol : hell yah me and manda got drunk last night didnt i tell you?! haa jk
Smoked : nope
Get high : nope
Done any drugs : nope
Eaten an entire box of oreos : no but now u make me want oreos i hate you
Been on stage : hmmm no
Gone skinny dipping : nope
Been dumped :  nope
Dyed your hair : yeah actually for halloween it was black
Stolen anything : nope

Craziest : amanda!
Loudest : me manda and ash(s) when we are together
Most shy : prolly alex
Blondest : amanda duhh
Smartest : ricky!! hes so smart!
Kindest : alex....luv ya babe
Best personality :  they all have good personalities dont make me choose
Most talented : no idea they are all pretty talented
Best singer : no clue
Most ghetto :  none really
Drama Queen/King : we can all be at times
Pain in the ass : none i love my friends
The one you just want to strangle to death: cough*stephanie*cough*
Funniest : me manda and ash when we are toghether
Best person for advice : alex, ashley(b) and amanda
Dependable : alex
Trustworthy : alex and amanda and ashley (b)
Druggie : theres a quite a few
Most likely to end up in jail : me and amanda prolly!
Person you've known the longest : ash we grew up together

Last dream : dont member, the last one i member clearly was after homecoming, where i rewinded it
Last nightmare : when sum guys almost killed my brother
Car ride : uhhhh this morning
Last time you cried : a while, im doin pretty good
Last movie seen : the day after tommorow....love it
Last movie rented : ^^^
Last book read : im almost done with christopher reeve's autobiography
Last word said : i think i laughed
Last curse word said : prolly shit
Last time you laugh : like 5 minutes ago
Last phone call : after school with manda
Last CD played : no cds but from limewire yellowcard
Last song you listened to : empty apartment
Last annoyance : my father prolly
Last IM : amanda
Last weird encounter : dont member
Last person you hugged : derek
Last person you yelled at : dont noe
Last time you've been evil : when me and amanda got in a fight at lunch
Sarcastic? : all the time, i get the smartass of me from my bro
Last time you fought with your parents: constantly
Last time you wished upon a star : a long ass time
Played Truth or Dare : hmm awwww universal studios
Spent quality time alone : all the time

Are you talking to someone on AIM : yes manda
Do you feel lonely : yes dont get me started
Ever TP'd someone's house : hahah paper toweling amanda!!!
How about egging someone's house : hahah yes halloween andrew broke the window!
Do you not like dislike not like me? : what the?!
Ain't Eminem and 50 Cent just fine? : hell no
Yo Momma : huh?
Ever been so hungry you felt like you could eat the person next to you? : haha yeah
What do you think of George Bush? : i hate him
Any secret fetishes? nope
Do you like to wear chains? : uhhh no
How many languages do you speak? : french and english
Are your fingers tired? no
Glad this is over? aww no now im gunna go all bored


fill it out plz! [
November 4th, 2004 at 5:07pm]
[ mood | bored ]

1. Who are you?

2. Are we friends?

3. When and how did we meet?

4. How have I affected you?

5. What do you think of me?

6. What's the fondest memory you have of me?

7. How long do you think we will be friends?

9. Do you have a crush on me?

10. Would you kiss me?

11. Would you hug me?

12. Physically, what stands out?

13. Emotionally, what stands out?

14. Do you wish I was cooler?

15. On a scale of 1-10, how hot am I?

16. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.

17. Am I loveable?

18. How long have you known me?

19. Describe me in one word.

20. What was your first impression?

21. Do you still think that way about me now?

22. What do you think my weakness is?

23. Do you think I'll get married?

24. What makes me happy?

25. What makes me sad?

26. What reminds you of me?

27. If you could give me anything what would it be?

28. How well do you know me?

29. When's the last time you saw me?

30. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?

31. Do you think I could kill someone?

32. Have we ever had sex?

33. (HONESTLY) would you have sex with me?

34. Do you miss me?

35. Do you think i miss you?

36. Am i a bitch?

do it plz and do it truthfully too!!!!! i will love u forever if u do!!!!

<33 britt

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halloween was fun [
November 2nd, 2004 at 5:41pm]
[ mood | tired ]

hey guys well i decided to update cuz i have nuthing better to do lol. well i have been feeling a little better i guess, not as sad, this week is so far better than last week. halloween was alot of fun. me and amanda went "trick-or-treating" with luis and andrew haha we were gothic! it was funny, black hair and all. when i get pictures ill show you! yeah me and andrew i guess had a bet going abuot halloween, i thought i won it but i guess not. lol. oh well at least i pissed stephanie off, maybe she will stop talking to me b/c of it.

the 1st quarter is almost over, i didnt do so good prolly end up with 2 C's thats really bad for me, but hey high school is hard!

<33 britt

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what a crappy week this has been [
October 27th, 2004 at 7:44pm]
[ mood | crappy ]

well my life has pretty much went from great everything being perfect to absolutly nuthing being good or even close to it. i didnt noe that was possible of happening over like a week. my classes are just overwelming me with work, making my head want to explode, and to top it off a cetain person cough*ian*cough skrewed with my heart. im not going to put his real name up here, no his name is not ian, its a codename between me manda and ash. fuck u noe i got enof going on with a stupid guy getting in the way. u noe i wonder why do i always gets skrewed over, hmm maye im just destined to be unhappy, guess so.

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